From Ryan and Kessa Scott
The first major change that we felt was an overhaul of our faith. We thought we were doing pretty well – we had left our home and were in a whole different world, all on faith. But, it was the first few weeks when we realized how flimsy our faith really was. It was very difficult in the beginning to trust God to provide our next steps. Imagine taking two people who are accustomed to making detailed 5 year career plans with action steps and yearly goals and asking them to quit their jobs, leave the country and live day to day. Sounds liberating to many but to the two of us, it was a struggle. It felt irresponsible. We wanted to plan. We wanted to work. We wanted to “do.” We felt…a bit at loss. The earthly, fleshy achievers in us were screaming: “What are you doing for God, really? “What have you done today?” “You’re useless!” But, day-by-day we felt God calling us to continue in faith. And what God called us to do was oddly enough to “not do.” Our natural inclination was to settle down, study Spanish, volunteer, help, etc. But God said “NO.” What we didn’t realize at the time was he was taking us from “DO-ers” to “BE-ers.” We knew, mentally and theologically that we were saved by grace and grace alone, but we still felt like we HAD to do something and something BIG for God. God took that mentality and set it straight. We now see that the most important thing is to fall more and more in love with God and a natural outpouring of that love will be service. We GET to serve God and God doesn’t need us to do anything. He allows us to serve Him as a gift. Little by little we became to realize what God was teaching us. And as we learned, God revealed more to us. He gave us glimpses of our next steps bit by bit. Eventually we did feel called to volunteer. Looking back, we can see God’s hand in all of it. If we had given into our fleshy and legalistic demands to “do, do, do,” we would have missed out on what God was trying to teach us as well as the opportunity that He was saving for us in His plan. God faithfully took us from being a Martha, who found the most important thing as service, to a Mary, where we choose communing with God as the most important thing. This lesson is a hard one to learn and it is one we seem to unlearn and have to relearn over and over again.